I don't know if anyone reads this but if you do, I'm sorry for only the two posts. It's been such a long time since I've written but you know.
So update on my life? Hmm.... Not much to say. In the last week, I have had two interviews. I found out on Friday that I am currently the top candidate for a position with a head start program. I would be the Family Health Advocate. I'm excited about this position because it is a job and they are rewarding me for my education. However, I am so unbelievably disappointed in the fact that the job is not where geographically I want to be. But it's a start and it's all about baby steps right? At least that's what I keep telling myself.
Ahh... The boy that I love. Yep, still love him. Yep, still want to be with him more than anything. Yep, he still says he likes me as a sister. There are days when I just want to give up on him and be like nope, I'm done. I don't want to like you or love you anymore. But I can't. Every night, he calls me and we talk for hours. And he always, always calls me when he doesn't feel good. Take this morning, 3 am I'm the one he calls because he can't sleep and his back is hurting. He decides about 20 minutes later that he wants to try to go to sleep. Then he calls me at 4:30 because he still can't sleep. We talk for about a half an hour when he's like go back to bed. I hate that there is nothing, NOTHING I can do to help him. I can't take away his pain, I can't make him feel better and I can't be there in person to comfort him. I get so frustrated with him because he supposedly likes a coworker which can be such a mistake but he can't talk to her about anything going on. I'm the one he talks to. Oh so confusing. Oh well.
